going china :(

hheyys ppl.
im going china tonight.or actually tml morning haha.
2 am.
im gonna be online for as long as i can.
but theres no blogger in china so im gonna be on hiatus for 2 weeks.
will miss u all.
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excessive use may have laxative effect

haha im totally addicted to the lakerol lemon sweets.
haha.
then i saw the laxative effect thing.
haha
gonna pack for camp tomorrow.
omg.
dun tink i have the right stuffage.
haix.
sad.
luckily im going china after that.
cant wait.
im gonna miss my nice comfy bed~!
T_T

ohGAWD

hey no fair.
time is passing way too quickly.
its already 4 pm.
omg.
soon it will be tml.
then i have to start packing and all that crap.
camp awaits.
i dunno.
just cant help but think that im not good enough.
you see people like yanting and xenia having 100% attendance and all that crap.
participating in fdc, building perfect tents, getting perfect napfa scores.
whereas i can hardly do half of the things they do.

hermes

lalala.junk food.

have decided to put lyrics'/poems/watever crap i can find in my posts cos i have nothing better to do.camp draws near.am so dead.
"Vindicated"
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am rightI swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

=$

oh gawd.
i think im gonna die at np camp.
hopefully i dont get stomach ache during camp.
my bowels have been weak these few days.
its agonizing.
bahh.
im not in a good mood now.

life sucks

i dunno.
im depressed now.
kind of pissed at myself for being pathetic too.
feeling crappy.
dun mind me.
im just venting frustrations.
grr.
this is crap.
oh gawd.
damn.
i think i will go smack the wall now.

boo :)

haha. today was not bad.
my mom's birthday today.
i went out with shin to wander along orchard awhile.
heheh.
we went to borders and sat there talking and drawing and reading.
haha.
all in all a good day.
christmas is coming. :$
shall TRY to get presents for everyone in china.
haha.
feel glad that i have so many friends ><
christmas is the time of thanksgiving.^^
shall hone art skills in the mean time.^^

plans

haha.this week is gonna be cool.
today im going out to watch a movie.
tomorrow im going to orchard with shinnii..
hehe..
yay..

im really boredd at home though.
nothing much to do.
haix.
now only 9 smth.
i can only go out at 11 plus.
hmms.
maybe i shall go earlier and go see comics.muahaha.
im gonna be broke.

oh.my.god.

im am so bored.
i seriously need to find something to do.
go out.
something.
i have nothing to look forward to.
and the fact that my mother hasnt gotten wireless
if not i could be playing rpg or something
but the lack of wireless is
frustrating.
im very very bored.

art

heheh.
finished two pieces of art yesterday.
maybe i really am improving.
they were better than i have ever drawn.
i inked and coloured one of them.
shall go ink and colour the other one today.
maybe i shall draw another one today.
we'll see.

lol

haha.
sgt jarrel somehow found my blog and tagged.o.0
who knew this is what ncos did in their time off.
does he even know who i am??
haha.doubt so.
oh yeah.
camp.im in group 2.yangyi and fufen our iCs.
hmm. i heard from daniel they are a pair.
lol.wonder if its true.
haha.
nothing much to post about anyway.staying at home everyday..
playing rpg and crapping on msn.
haiz.

hiee

hehe ppl.
just changed my blogskin..
for the upteenth time.. haha
i like this one..
its nice.
i'm watching the tong xin yuan thing.
the fyn is so bloody psycho.
she kidnapped the jingjing and wanwan and tried to get them knocked over.
i'm still bored.
haha maybe its the boredom that makes me sad.
cos i have nothing to do.no fulfilling purpose to fulfill.
heheh. =)
im ok now.as hyper as ever. =]

bahh

cant stand it.i feel lousy.like i have some kind of flu thing.i feel very angry and sad but i dunno why.
sian.
read some funny comic called 'misfile' yesterday.
cheered me up.
a little.
still kind of sad.
maybe char's feelings rubbing off on me.
frustrated.
all the songs on the radio sound sad to me.
haix.

sianess

yeah.im bored.theres nothing much to do.my mom expects me to start sec two work.but its like, nah.why should i when i will probably forget it all anyway.
probably dying of dengue ( so many mosquito bites ) anyway.
started reading mythical detective loki.quite morbid but interesting.might consider continuing.
reading tamora pierce and garth nix.
lotsa thick books from the library.
takes up alot of time.
lalala
sian ~

hellos.

holiday schedule.

`19 november - npcc training session
`23 - 25 november - annual camp
`26-12december - in china
`14 december - training session (T-T more training)
`16 december- training + promo test (o.0)
`21 december - training
`22 december- npcc retreat ( is there no rest??)
`27 december - training

they just wont let us have a break.evil people.